Archive for September, 2009

Still going to Disney

editors note: You will notice that some words are crossed out and replaced with “holiday”. Malia mentioned a while back that she would like to “go on holiday.” It took me a moment and realized that she got this phrase from Charlie & Lola (great children’s cartoon) and I love this saying. So I’m trying to stick with saying Holiday. It sounds so much more fun. By the way, she also says “money pinger” instead of cash register.

We are still going to make it to Disney World. Through all of the roller coaster rides with my mom fighting her cancer we decided that it would make my mom happier if we went on with our vacation holiday plans. I figured that it would be a good topic of discussion and I wouldn’t want her to feel bad if we cancelled. My friend Paige said that we all need Disney! We need it and my mom needs it as well! Since Paige is a professional…I believe her.

We haven’t done tooo much in the planning department. I got some spf and we need a few more things but we are just ready to go see Disney through Malia’s eyes. I can’t wait for her to see Peter Pan and Hook. And the princesses. Oh my God THE PRINCESSES! I figure that once treatment begins and things are progressing then I can get more excited about the trip going on holiday and make more plans. We don’t want to bog the day down with a ton of activities. We’ll try to go with the flow and make sure we see the important things. But I think Malia will also want to swim in the pool at the hotel! Like Lola says, Easy breezy lemon peasy!

Oh I did get the custom made dress from CourtneyCourtney yesterday. She did it again! A beautiful creation made by hand. It has Cinderella’s castle on the front and back of it and has bright beautiful colors. Absolutely perfect! I can’t even believe I put a link on here to her site - I like to keep her as my little secret. So thank you Courtney, you sparked some excitement for our Disney Birthday celebration!


Let the fight begin!

Well it’s been a rough month or so. In late August a tumor was found in my mom’s neck. She had been hoarse most of the summer and had a cough. The doctor told her she had a throat infection. Then it was bronchitis. Well, it never went away. She told the doctors that she knew something wasn’t right and that’s when they finally did an ultrasound. That was a heart breaking day to say the least. We held out hope that it wasn’t what we suspected and then the birage of tests began. The diagnosis: Adenocarcinoma - stage 3b. Lung cancer. The tests and days kind of blend together now and I think I was in a state of shock and denial. My mom has lung cancer. I still can’t believe it. My mom. It couldn’t happen this close to home could it? It did. I couldn’t cry at first but when it started, I couldn’t stop. I would wake up in the middle of the night and cry and wake up in the morning a cry in the shower. I had to excuse myself while playing barbies with my daughter to cry. I’ll have to say that my mom is a real trooper through all of this. She’s scared but ready to fight. I’m ready to face the fight with her. My dad and I will see that she has the support she needs.

My mom has decided to do a clinical trial that will last about 5 weeks. It calls for radiation 2 times a day. I hope it will work fast to reduce the tumor so she will be in less pain. The last week has been constant pain for her. Once the radiation and chemo start we’ll feel like we’re doing something. The waiting between these appointments has been the roughest part (for my dad and I anyways). My mom has a pretty rough ride ahead. She can do it though. She’s ready to kick cancers ass and I’m ready to sit in her corner and root her on and wipe the sweat from her brow and tell her to keep fighting.

The treatment begins on Monday. It still seems sureal to me. Positive thoughts. I will keep posting with progress.

I love you mom!