sad news…

dsc05670It saddens me deeply to say that my Mom passed away on October 17, 2010 at 3:20 a.m. Here we are Christmas 2009. My mom, Malia and me. This picture was actually in a draft post titled, “Great news…” Well, it’s quite the opposite to say the least. I couldn’t delete the picture so I decided to erase the draft and start over.

Actually at one time there was great news. My mom was doing great for awhile and I’m thankful for that. I haven’t been keeping up this blog like I thought I would be so it would take weeks to explain all of the details. So let’s just say that she kicked her Cancers ass and was winning the battle. But then the tumor decided to rally and came back with avengence.

My mom had a clean scan on July 1st. She had her port removed. She was feeling good. And then the problems started. I really can’t go into detail about them right now because that would be too hard on me. So after a hard summer, lots of cough medicine, antibiotics, hospital vistis, esophogeal stent and surgeries my mom is free from suffering. I’m happy that is she isn’t suffering anymore, but I am mad that she was taken too soon. I’m angry at the doctors, I’m angry at Cancer and I’m angry that I can’t call my mom anymore and hear her voice. But I’ll leave that for another post.

My mom was AMAZING throughout her battle with Lung Cancer. She didn’t complain. She didn’t feel sorry for herself. She was incredible. I would pick her up for her 2nd radiation treatment of the day and she would get up, get her jeans on, her cute little pattern socks and her red boots and say, “Let’s go.” One day I asked her why she didn’t just go in her sweats. She said, ” Just because I’m sick doesn’t mean I have to look and act sick. Who wants to see that?”

She was the strongest woman I have ever seen and will ever know. I love you mom and I hope you are free. I miss you more than I can ever say.


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