“Jesus is a cool name”

Hey, remember me? Poor neglected blog. I have many thoughts throughout the day of things to blog about. Off the top of my head…our Disney Vacation, Malia turning 4, Mom’s progress and Malia’s first dance recital. I usually decide to take a nap instead. So with that being said, I have a lot of catching up to do. For now, I’ll tell a brief story…

Malia has been opening Christmas cards with me. On one of the stamps there was Mary and baby Jesus. Here’s our conversation:

Malia: “Who is this?”
Me: “That’s Mary and baby Jesus.”
Malia: “I thought I recognized him.”
Long Pause
Malia: “Jesus is a cool name.”

I thought maybe there would be some questions of who Mary is, why Jesus is laying in hay. I wasn’t expecting what I heard…but she’s right, Jesus is a cool name. I just love the way she says things sometimes.

So, it’s only 3 days until Christmas. I’ll have to find my Christmas spirit. I guess I’ll take things as they come. I find when I try too much it causes stress and sometimes you can try too hard to make something special. I guess if your living in the moment, you won’t miss the special things that are just happening before you. What? Well, maybe Oogway from Kung Fu Panda can say it better: “You are too concerned with what was and what will be. There’s a saying: “Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift. That is why it is called the present.”

Hope everyone has a Merry Christmas!


Merry Christmas!



Go Mom!

I wanted to post to say that this Friday is my mom’s last radiation treatment. She’s been great going to 2 treatments a day. So she gets to ring the bell in the treatment center when she’s finished. Unfortunately we won’t be there to see or hear it, but I will be thinking of her and hopefully we can find a bell to ring for her too. She’s doing an amazing job of fighting and hanging in there. I’m very proud of her!


Helloooooo Disney!

One day to go…we leave bright and early tomorrow morning. Malia is very excited! I am too as a matter of fact. I’m finishing up packing and then I have last minute stuff to clean up and then I take my mom to treatment. Wow, I have not sat down for more than a half hour in weeks it seems. A vacation will be good for the soul! See you soon! Oh - and next time I get a chance to write on this blog - I will be a mother of a FOUR year old!


Still going to Disney

editors note: You will notice that some words are crossed out and replaced with “holiday”. Malia mentioned a while back that she would like to “go on holiday.” It took me a moment and realized that she got this phrase from Charlie & Lola (great children’s cartoon) and I love this saying. So I’m trying to stick with saying Holiday. It sounds so much more fun. By the way, she also says “money pinger” instead of cash register.

We are still going to make it to Disney World. Through all of the roller coaster rides with my mom fighting her cancer we decided that it would make my mom happier if we went on with our vacation holiday plans. I figured that it would be a good topic of discussion and I wouldn’t want her to feel bad if we cancelled. My friend Paige said that we all need Disney! We need it and my mom needs it as well! Since Paige is a professional…I believe her.

We haven’t done tooo much in the planning department. I got some spf and we need a few more things but we are just ready to go see Disney through Malia’s eyes. I can’t wait for her to see Peter Pan and Hook. And the princesses. Oh my God THE PRINCESSES! I figure that once treatment begins and things are progressing then I can get more excited about the trip going on holiday and make more plans. We don’t want to bog the day down with a ton of activities. We’ll try to go with the flow and make sure we see the important things. But I think Malia will also want to swim in the pool at the hotel! Like Lola says, Easy breezy lemon peasy!

Oh I did get the custom made dress from CourtneyCourtney yesterday. She did it again! A beautiful creation made by hand. It has Cinderella’s castle on the front and back of it and has bright beautiful colors. Absolutely perfect! I can’t even believe I put a link on here to her site - I like to keep her as my little secret. So thank you Courtney, you sparked some excitement for our Disney Birthday celebration!


Let the fight begin!

Well it’s been a rough month or so. In late August a tumor was found in my mom’s neck. She had been hoarse most of the summer and had a cough. The doctor told her she had a throat infection. Then it was bronchitis. Well, it never went away. She told the doctors that she knew something wasn’t right and that’s when they finally did an ultrasound. That was a heart breaking day to say the least. We held out hope that it wasn’t what we suspected and then the birage of tests began. The diagnosis: Adenocarcinoma - stage 3b. Lung cancer. The tests and days kind of blend together now and I think I was in a state of shock and denial. My mom has lung cancer. I still can’t believe it. My mom. It couldn’t happen this close to home could it? It did. I couldn’t cry at first but when it started, I couldn’t stop. I would wake up in the middle of the night and cry and wake up in the morning a cry in the shower. I had to excuse myself while playing barbies with my daughter to cry. I’ll have to say that my mom is a real trooper through all of this. She’s scared but ready to fight. I’m ready to face the fight with her. My dad and I will see that she has the support she needs.

My mom has decided to do a clinical trial that will last about 5 weeks. It calls for radiation 2 times a day. I hope it will work fast to reduce the tumor so she will be in less pain. The last week has been constant pain for her. Once the radiation and chemo start we’ll feel like we’re doing something. The waiting between these appointments has been the roughest part (for my dad and I anyways). My mom has a pretty rough ride ahead. She can do it though. She’s ready to kick cancers ass and I’m ready to sit in her corner and root her on and wipe the sweat from her brow and tell her to keep fighting.

The treatment begins on Monday. It still seems sureal to me. Positive thoughts. I will keep posting with progress.

I love you mom!


Poor George

Malia’s laying in bed before bedtime…

“What do you think Curious George would look like if I shaved all his fur off?”


Who me?

While Malia was having her snack before we went to the big pool (the Groose Pointe Woods park pool), she was leaning against the chair having as snack. Se was lazily leaning and the chair was slowly sliding to the side. She knew this and was looking at me smirking, waiting for me to tell her to please stop it already. Well, I tried to ignore her but I finally gave in and said, “Please stop leaning on the chair, you’re going to fall.” She says, “Don’t be a party pooper Mom.”


69 days!

It’s official - we’re headed to Disney World on October 21st! It’s exciting and scary at the same time. It’s exciting for the obvious reasons…our first family vacation, Malia’s 4th birthday, Malia’s first plane ride and did I mention that it’s Disney?

It’s scary because we need to save money in such a short time and in this economic time - it’s difficult. It’s also scary because of the plane ride. I never used to be afraid of flying, but now I am. I will have time to work on it and I will be better because it’s Malia’s first time and I have to be brave for her (and Doug)! But all in all I’m sure it will be worth it. Money is money and we will survive. I keep reminding myself of that. There is plenty to look forward to.

Now for the fun stuff - We’re staying at the Disney Caribbean Resort. It looks like a nice place at a reasonable price. We have the Pirate room and hopefully Malia will be thrilled to be sleeping in a pirate ship bed. We have planned that we will be attending Cinderella’s Castle for lunch on Malia’s birthday! Prior to that she will be made up to be a princess for the day. I’m bracing myself for the high pitched squeals of excitement. I’m also bracing myself for some tantrums. I know they will happen and the happiest place on earth can’t even stop those from happening. I should mention that  I’m not just talking about Malia’s tantrums either…we’ve all been having them lately. And that last statement solidifies the need to get away for some fun!

The hard part is to keep this secret from Malia. I could only imagine the amount of times a day we would be asked, “ are we going to see Mickey today, tomorrow, well wheeeeen, it’s not fair, that’s too long, well if we aren’t going tomorrow then we won’t go EVER!” Yeah, we’ll wait awhile before we tell her.

Keep you posted on the plans and anxiety excitement!


Here we come!

malia-scs-beachyeah, I know it’s been a log time since I’ve posted. Sorry neglected blog. I will definately try to catch up and summarize the summer. Plus, I need to update Malia’s newsletters before she’s 5! But this is a must post…we are going to Disney World for Malia’s 4th birthday! The tickets have been bought and we need to finish up the accommodations. I just can’t believe it. HOLY SHIT!

We haven’t been on a vacation since our honeymoon…which was in fact Disney. Now we will return there with a child of our own. I can’t wait to tell Malia but we’d better wait awhile or else she’ll be asking every minute if it is time to go see Mickey. The tricky part will be having money to spend. But we have a little time to save and cash in our coins! Malia is at a right age and her imagination is definately ready for it. I just have to make sure I have the Xanax for the flight. I get anxious just thinking about it. But I’ll be alright…2.5 hours will be nothing at all. So, until next time…Disney, here we come!